A disability rears it’s ugly head again

Good morning all and a rather gray morning it is too.

I'm headed down to the VA once again for my yearly Roto-Rooter-ing. Sounds pretty bad I suppose but with the stuff they pump into me before the rootering begins all I mainly suffer is a sore throat for about a week afterward along with being out of it for 24 hrs after they hit me with the stuff which means of course that I have to have a driver to bring me back.

Hi Honey!

My wonderful wife has offered to take me down and bring me back and on top of that her daughter Jennifer has offered to play shopkeeper for the day so Long Meadow Farms quilt shop can remain open. Since it is only 14 days before Christmas this is a good thing.

Now…about this process I'm undergoing. What's that? Maybe you don't need to know? Well, I'm going to tell you anyway so there :-)

I received a very unwanted medical discharge from the Navy in 1988 and as a result, my beloved career in the Submarine force  came to a screeching halt…my plans scuttled and sunk to the bottom. I had three service related disabilities, two of which the Submarine force could live with but the third was not acceptable and a good sub sailor was forced to hit the streets.

I had developed acid reflux disease and the subsequent ulcers that tend to go with it. Being on a sub is a rather stressful job; living, working and breathing in a extremely unique environment and although small ulcers were not uncommon at all it's the big ones that got noticed and that was an absolute no-no as far as going to sea in a submarine was concerned. My "big one" was in my esophagus just above my stomach valve…oh just lovely!

Fast forward to today and I still have the problem although the ulcer is mostly scar tissue now. Strong medication takes care of most of all that extra acid my traitorous body produces but I also live with an esophagus that is all scarred up and burned from years of acid running up to my ears during the time when I wasn't receiving any treatment for the problem (I didn't wise up and enroll in the Veteran's Administration until 2001 being the stubborn bonehead that I am). Now, over a period of about a year the thing starts to constrict in two different places where the scar tissue is the heaviest and eventually ends up constricting to the point where the passage has shrunk to a size about the diameter of a pencil or less. The fun really starts when my esophagus, tired of the whole thing, begins to rebel by spasming out, causing the exact sensations of a heart attack. The reason for this wonderful experience is that it shares the same nerve bundle as the heart itself.

So much fun.

All the above makes everyday things like swallowing and belching (of all things) a much more interesting process than it usually is as you might imagine. Like where I occasionally discover that most of my dinner never arrived at the stomach and is waiting at one of the constrictions much like a line of cars waiting at a toll booth for the moron at the head of line to find exact change or something. So now it's off to White River Junction and same day surgery where they will uncoil the endoscope from hell (looks like a three headed octopus), pump me full of la-la juice and head on down to expand a few things here and there and do a full inspection to see if all my guts are still present and accounted for.

This isn't the first time I've had this done and it won't be the last. It's just one of the things that I have to put up with on a regular basis that comes from my time in the service. No regrets at all and no complaints here. Just a need to post about my experiences with the medical end of things. Makes life a bit easier to deal with if you can understand that.

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A disability rears it’s ugly head again — 13 Comments

  1. Ouchy ouchy, seriously sorry to hear of all the problems. Very painful stuff indeed! It’s hard to even imagine what it feels like to have your esophagus spasm the way you describe, besides painful it must be frightening. Hope today wasn’t too hateful and the results are encouraging.

  2. I’m back and no problems found that weren’t already there. The procedure isn’t really a hateful experience (they knock me right out) and I’ve had it done several times before. Because they waited so long to do the procedure last time it was a bit frightening since they kept telling me it might be my heart (such BS, the pump is fine).

    I’ll make another trip down in a month. The gastroenterologist wants to see me to talk about the options I have as it becomes worse.

    No big deal. Life hands down situations and it’s up to me to deal with them. Life’s one big learning experience right? The idea is to keep learning and not just quit because it’s too hard.

  3. oooh, yuck. Glad you are okay, and really glad they knock you out beforehand. Had my stomach pumped once while awake (after a surgery) and that ranks right up there as the worst thing you can do with your time…actually right at the top.

    Funny, you are the second submariner I know, and the second with bad ulcers. You are lucky and got out, he had to go to the…Pentagon! (Gasp!) Poor guy…

  4. The Pentagon!!??

    Yuck…hope they knocked him out beforehand :P (I don’t like using smilies that much but they do come in handy sometimes).

    Unfortunately, ulcers came with the job but what a job it was! Only for the insane and infirm in mind though.

    I certainly fit the bill there alright. But at least I’m nice about it.

    I’ll be back to work tomorrow I hope. This time around was a little rough and I’ve been “lavaged” a couple times in the past. Such a nice sounding name for ramming a tube up your nose and down into your stomach. Sounds like some sort of French bath or massage or something. “Are you going for ze La Vage zis aftair-noon, oui?”

  5. Hi, Well I hope your Christmas is better this year. I go to VA in Fayetteville Arkansas on Dec 12. A little differant this time for me. I get scoped both ways.
    I am collecting 10% VA Disability, since 2001 for Reflux Esophagus.
    However I’ve had to quit my job two years ago. I couldn’t take the bending and lifting. Not to mention the strictures from scar tissue.
    I was working afternoons in a factory, manual labor. I couldn’t eat befor work or during work. I worked afternoons, so I wasn’t eating anything until 11:30 at night when I got home.
    I developed this in 1977 in the Navy. I’m a 30 veteran of gastric problems. So I refilled for disability. I can’t make it on $115.00 a month, without working.
    Merry Christmas
    Blessings Ray

  6. Hi Ray,

    My God, has it been a year already? The situation with my gastric problems (sounds like we have the same thing from the same place) have become significantly worse and I was forced to leave work place just over two months ago so it looks like this Christmas is going to be even skinner than last year. Oh well, such is life and all that. I wish you all the luck in your refiling. Let me know how it goes. Working on the same thing myself.

  7. HI, well Kirk I’m just thankfull to be around for Christmas. So I don’t care how skinny it gets. Are you getting any compansation at all ?
    The following is list of what the Docs say I have (since 1977)
    Diarrhea, Gastritis, Hypertrophic Gastric Folds, Doubenal Bulb, Ulcer Crater, Edematous Folds, Peptic Stricture, Distal Esophagus, Hiatus Hernia and Reflux Esophagus.
    I can’t even remember all this stuff so I have to have it written down.
    Have you talked to a VA Counsler ? Depression is going to set in and
    you will feel useless at times. Don’t ignore it- GET HELP -I’m in Harrison Arkansas, where are you located ? I’d like to talk to you and make sure your alright and getting the help you need.
    raythatch@yahoo.com
    Blessings Ray

  8. What are your current eating habits and life style? Sometimes, minor changes towards a healthier living style can reduce the symptoms of gastric problems. This, unfortunately, isn’t a cure.

  9. Hi, Fun isn’t it.. I got back right befor Christmas.. yeah they had to stretch my esophagas out too. However they couldn’t find anything new.. So they changed my meds to Ranitine 150 mg twice a day.. and Diphen/atrop 5 mg 4 times a day..
    Well I can no longer sleep through the night.. Dry throat and nose..
    So I end up getting out of bed.. And having a glass of water.. However .. I can’t hold that down.. so I get to vomit etc.. and sit in a chair afraid to move.. because if I use my stomach muscles to get out of the chair I’ll get sick again..
    But I can’t work.. no one wants to hire someone who is vomiting all the time and has to run to the bathroom because he has the nasties..
    I turned in my request for Social Security too and I have to much money in my retirement .. Wow 7 grand.. and my wife makes to much money.. What do I do .. file for seperation.. ??? Divorce and become a homeless Vet.. I’m ready to walk .. Right now I feel useless….
    Don’t worry I have 50 grand in life insurance.. for my wife.. But suicide voids it..
    I think the whole system is demeaning.. and they want you to feel this way.. welcome to politics.. they want you under their control.. and useless…. a non threat…
    So back to Doc I go on friday.. and over to talk to shrink after that..
    Blessings Ray

  10. Hey Ray

    One day at a time my friend. I get to feeling useless several times a day but I beat it back each time. Gives me something to do, besides…I know damn well that I’m not useless even now and I certainly wasn’t in the past. You gotta hold on to that. I do get awful tired of feeling like, well…like you describe plus the other two disabilities I deal with but what the hell? We chose to do what we did and there’s a price to be paid for every choice we make even if the choice was a righteous one. I figure we dealt then and we can deal now.

    But for me, I absolutely have to keep the attitude up because if I don’t, I won’t get anything constructive done towards improving my situation any (meaning disability and the compensation thereof). It becomes harder than hell to think straight when I’m down and feeling like crap physically at the same time so I do what I can for it and that’s to eliminate the depression side of it as much as possible. Easier on my wife that way too.

    Anyway, I just got back from a visit to my rep (DAV) located at the VA in White River Jct, VT (via the good old DAV van). I’m currently at 70% overall and am now applying for 100% based on “individual unemployability”. Tell what you what…you wish me luck on that endeavor and I’ll send good thoughts your way about your battle.

    Oh, and Rabeprazole and Zantak does the trick for me or at least just abut eliminates the puking aspect. Takes an act of congress to get the Rabeprazole but it’s possible if you push for it.

    Keep your head up.

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