I must have this innate desire to bring pain unto myself. I’m getting to the point where I’m certain this is true. Why do I feel this way you ask?
Oh…you didn’t?
Well that’s okay ‘cos I’m going to tell you anyway. I let myself run out of pain killers.
Yes, I have to take pain killers now in order to allow me to be somewhat useful during the day and sleep soundly at least half the night and I let myself run out of the damn things before I called down to the VA for a renewal. That was last Tuesday.
To be truthful about it I do this on purpose. I take two different pain medications, one being non-narcotic in nature and the other…well, it does have a tendency to make one feel physically better than they actually are. And although I’m not of the type of personality to become addicted to these highly addicting substances ( it’s just not in me I guess) I like to purge my system of this particular pain killer once a month or so despite the consequences of not having it.
I kick myself in the butt every time I do this though. Not because I crave the damn things but because it frickin’ hurts! However, the positive aspect of the this is that my mind is noticeably clearer without the medication albeit a bit more distracted by the various nerve endings of my physical being banging on the door of the complaint department.
These killers of pain should be arriving at my door within the next couple of days or so and my time of purging will be at an end. Then another month of semi-lucidity will follow so I best write up as many posts as I possibly can until then.
Who knows…I might even make sense?
On balance, I think I prefer the pain, daft as it may sound. I find there is nothing worse than a brain trying to force its way through a bowl of thick green-pea soup?
Doesn’t sound daft at all and I heartily agree. if you had told me I’d be on daily pain meds 3 years ago I would have said that was crazy. Sure I was a hurting unit back then and had been for many years but it wasn’t anything I couldn’t handle. SOP and all that.
Now I have something else to handle. Accepting the fact that I now need a bit of help. It’s just too bad it’s in the form of pain killers. I’m just lucky that I can get away with the lowest dose.
Ah well, take it as it comes. Oh yeah…did you find your tobacco?
I used to take a pain killer for migraine headaches that I could take for 9 months and then had to get off for three because they quit working. For those three months, all I could do was suffer. Thank goodness, they now have a medication that stops the cause instead of just masking the pain.
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Warmly,
Linda P. Morton